You know, that bitch might return my messages any time now. I have To know, by Zbignew Preisner playing now. On ear headphones to leave behind exterior. I wanna dig. On the other hand, I want to share my thoughts with her. Non the less altered.
I believe this is connected. Peterson said that. What‘s outside, that‘s inside and vice versa. The battle between introvert and a scary thought what would that look like in 5-10 years. You know how to strategise right? All you do is predicting moves. Yours, of course. You evil shit, you pretend you know what others are up to all the time.
Song‘s about to switch. It‘s that.. no more lying friends. George Michael. Pain. Checking nail surroundings and thinking of what‘s it like to read. Reader‘s perspective. Exterior. Let‘s go. Two spammed message boxes. The need to communicate now works against. Now only did you not receive response, you now suffer for it. The need kicks in.
The first time I saw it. To be honest, I was shown to me. I was a stupid kid. Probably still am, who knows. I recently got reminded of this film with a similar thought I had while reading an opinion of a man I highly respect in social media. He observed, just like I just did how many details this movie contains. Since I read that opinion I got some prejudices of course. I remember the person bringing around a topics of politics even.
I saw a lot of archetypal personas in this Kubrick’s Masterpiece Clockwork Orange. The trickster, woman, flawed human searching for meaning, deciding his fate and the ultimate fight between good and evil from the inside. Just like Crime and Punishment. I just made this connection. Am I stupid, or what? This is connected. The evil, as most as studied by these artists, speaking the unknown in the best form they can show us, is speaking, instructing and giving away the secrets with which he does trick us and the good, that is being put to sleep. After watching something like this you are elevated. You feel the wisdom flowing through you. But only if you got some of the keys. I believe this to be the ultimate joy of learning, knowledge. But inflated intellect could be seen as only another way for devil to play his tricks. This movie is just a trigger.
I had this „loop“ before. Finding myself wandering between the sides and furthest corners of the scull. Good and evil. All the movies. Who could have thought we all posses these forces inside of us. Ready to burst. And the social conditioning puts us under control. For the better, I guess. ID better be kept under guard.
I might be getting the playlist que to the end. After Ben Frost, Thomas Newman Ghosts shed some light into the mind.
I remember washing the guilt bit in unofficial clip. The hands under the falling water from the tap. Committing… and in the end washing of hands (guilt). And the song coming on to it‘s final chords. As the touch of divine is going through the rear mirror already.
I believe I torture myself for a reason. It has to be. I see other people unaware of the subconscious fight. Hence unaware of the manipulation that was pulled on one‘s mind. I was wrong. It‘s Aaron Static Remix. No one will be washing hands this time. Still, a nice memory though. I‘ll check on a chick if you don‘t mind.
I know this jumps a lot. But it‘s ok with a fast mind. I know what you are thinking. And I believe this to be objective. You don‘t know me. I don‘t know me. And I god damn love to learn me. Selfish? I wanted to say rule, I know where this is coming from. I saw it in the Clockwork Orange. Next time I‘m watching a movie, I‘m definitely turning on the MS Word and second screen. Sleep tight kids. And happy Xmas.
Oh and by the way. Ludwig Van… 9 inversed… Is heavenly … devil. I hope I cover details of Clockwork Orange next time. Much to tell…